ladeedums

2005-04-06T19:28:00.000+08:00

Tonight is a story of love
Two broken hearts set by one

Tonight I will sit next to you
To see if you act like we're through
To make you laugh is all I want
I'll hold you while tears fill our eyes

its not a matter of trust in you.
i just dont trust myself to be good enough
lets just forget about silly old me. (:

2005-04-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

> my thoughts are choking on you my dear

310305
extremely great day aft sch.
wonderful xiangy min went down to ikea just to accompany me
got some stuff.
and cut our hair. at an extremely high class salon
HAH!
it was just totally fun. i love my xiangy! (:

010405
cross country day!
i was kinda psyched about giving lil pressies to everyone.
heh. darling poh got 9th! or 10th.
wonderful of her.
congrats dearie! (((:
and mindy got proved wrong.
OBVIOUSLY
got a ride from chums mum down to his house.
showered. and learnt to use a hairdryer
caught a wedding date
pretty sweet show.
i think min loved the ending lots.
actually i m pretty sure about that. ((((:
discussed plans for 030405 in coffee club
heh.i m hyped and EXTREMELY happy for my girly
she just better not get hurt or someone will be VERY VERY SORRY.
went to changi after that.
it was pretty nice. with the bright lights and all.

020405
met sam in the afternoon
just to get my prettaye wallet.
heh.its huge.but LOVELY!
saw a pretty peppermint roxy top too.
and my heels conked out totally on me.
rammy got me some budget slippers
went to church after that.
but didnt attend the service.
bussed around. and the furniture warehouse thingy was hell funny
even if you dont find it so.
so there.
take good care leonard. get well soon.

2005-03-27T13:29:00.000+08:00

a movie script ending

PLANNING FOR DSQUARED HAS COMMENCED
its gonna be hell fun
i m psyched
and i do so love chatting with my xiangy/niangzi.
i m not sure what she is now.heh

reds mindy
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
TWO FOUR
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
heh
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
you aint princess mindy lah pls
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
im so sorry
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
is this how you speak to your highness ?
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
haha.i cldnt care less.cos you aint a princess.
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
WAKE UP YR IDEA LAH
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
unrepentent civilisian
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
-shakes head sadly
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
crazy beggar who thinks she s a princess
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
- shakes head vigorously
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
hai, looks like you havent learn your lesson
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
thou shant pursure senseless stuff
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
-bits your vigorous head off
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
bies*
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
bites*
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
hahaha.
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
yr obviously highly delusional.
/ ness ; JERK IT OUT twofour > the glove compartment isnt accurately named - says:
- knocks yr sadly shaking head off yr neck.
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
hahah
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
okay
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
if this goes on
,mindy. oh patrick has got a hot crush on me ! (: says:
we will all by headless

hah.xiangy/niangzi nv fails to make me laugh.

2005-03-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

random thoughts

spongebob ; super lame
david hesselhoffs hairy chest ; gross
patrick ; pretty cute but pretty irritating too
shell necklace ; duper pretty
qilin yuka and nic ; darlings! (:
neos ; SUPER ugly.
essential brews ; heavenly food
picture taking ; hell lot of fun

i think yr right. (:

2005-03-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

today rocks really (:
i love the sock
the ice cream ; sinful but fabulous
things are just NICE.

2005-03-22T18:17:00.000+08:00

the way we get by

today was great really
thanks to everyone who msged or wished me happy birthday
and thanks to everyone who gave me sth too

the besties know me well.
i love their oh-so-beautiful pressie.
and darling tsemin did a wonderful card.
its basically a collage of the fun times we had on new yrs.
really prettaye.
SUPER SWEET. (((((:
i love you guys!

also, i loved the present really
it s super nice.
its what i really wanted.
assurance. (:

2005-03-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

hello sunshine

random thoughts ;
match against damai could have been played better
we WILL play better in the next 2 matches
photosession with the natl goalshooter was hell funny
mindy ng min li hasnt told me what she s supposed to tell me
i m gonna be 16! (:
there is a mountain of chinese homework to do
i WILL get my butt off this chair and go do some work

SOON.

2005-03-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

heads we will and tails we ll try again

chinese thingy was an awful waste of time
the whole class was chatting and doing their angel/mortal stuff.
i wish there wasnt chinese wkshop tmr. )):
match with rv after that
i think we played a whole lot more aggresively than before
won by 3 or sth.
took lotsa photos after that.
it was hell fun.
tuitions in an hrs time.
dangit.

2005-03-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

everything i do
is only to get tangled up in you

lit project is disastrous.
v labour intensive.
shot a few shots aft that though

lunch date was good today
went to kuishin bo.
there was hell lot of food.
so much it was kinda scary
and we just kept looking at each other and laughing
we didnt exactly pig out today
but had fun crapping and stuff nonetheless.
man i m stuffed.
but feeling really satisfied.
esp since i ve got the pretty bracelet i set my eye on.
heh (:

rvhs match tmr.
cant wait.

2005-03-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

and its always you and me
always, and forever

oh yes. my angel rocks! he/she owns!
superduperly nice.
he/she/it has created an email for me!
which is super sweet.
and has sent me a wonderfully nice email.
i m def gonna save it.

was out with sheranne today
lots of pretty stuff that caught my eye.
i shall definitely get something tmr, just to keep myself in high spirits
later part of training was definitely tiring
had to do some weird runs.
and pass some seh pass.
ahh well. cant wait for lunch tmr.
FINE DINING ; here i come!

2005-03-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

RACHEL ; ):
ANNA ; ):
AMANDA ; ))))))):
FIONA ; (((((((:

i hope you re seeing this xianggong!
because FIONA , of ijtp netball
GOAL ATTACK
is small BUT dynamite!
and she totally rocks! rules! owns!

today was fun really.
training wasnt too tough but seriously long
and i guess 2/12 of the netball team are showing really scary signs of lesbian tendencies.super funny.
ahh well.

2005-03-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

Dearest creature in creation,
Study English pronunciation.
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse, and worse.
I will keep you, Suzy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy.
Tear in eye, your dress will tear.
So shall I!
Oh hear my prayer.
Just compare heart, beard, and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word,
Sword and sward, retain and Britain.
(Mind the latter, how it's written.)
Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as plaque and ague.
But be careful how you speak:
Say break and steak, but bleak and streak;
Cloven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, show, poem, and toe.
Billet does not rhyme with ballet,
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet.
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.
Viscous, viscount, load and broad,
Toward, to forward, to reward.
And your pronunciation's OK
When you correctly say croquet,
Rounded, wounded, grieve and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive and live.
Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion and battalion.
Sally with ally, yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, and key.
Say aver, but ever, fever,
Neither, leisure, skein, deceiver.
Heron, granary, canary.
Crevice and device and aerie.
Face, but preface, not efface.
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.
Large, but target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, out, joust and scour, scourging.
Ear, but earn and wear and tear
Do not rhyme with here but ere.
Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew
Stephen,Monkey, donkey,
Turk and jerk,
Ask, grasp, wasp, and cork and work.
Finally, which rhymes with enough --
Though, through, plough, or dough, or cough?
Hiccough has the sound of cup.
My advice is to give up!!!

2005-03-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

a nice setting for heartache where emotions come last

random thoughts ;
i m bored.
greatest understatement of all time.
i m psyched up about nxt wk. (:
things are great now.i wont let you/this get me down.
knock me down i ll keep on moving. ((:

2005-03-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

so are we playing for keeps
these days begin and they dont end for weeks
excuse me while i fall apart
dont flatter yrself sweetheart

today was definitely eventful
feel kinda shittaye at losing my cool so many times
but i guess all s well that ends well.
anw i m proud of our class (((:

2005-03-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

we ll be miles apart
i ll keep you deep inside

i m so screwed for emath test tmr.
i get stuck at every single qn i practice

2005-03-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

i ll be just fine pretending i m not

this is rather awful
kinda have myself to blame.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Sometimes,
I feel the fear of, uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.

2005-03-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

we re 4th in south zone.
i just cant wait to start on nationals.
we could have won, that was the worst feeling ever
just have to dry those eyes and move on yes girlys? (:

going back to school was really fun
captains ball was seriously fun.
too bad i didnt get to see my eyecandy.heh
the small ones are just super funny. (((:

2005-03-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

i m a fool
for you ;

we lost the match today.
shall be playing for 3rd and 4th placings tmr.
i do hope we ll be able to beat henderson
WE MUST

theres tons of stuff to do suddenly
i feel so lost in lessons
dont understand chem, emath and amath.
theres like tests popping up everywhere
notes to write
piles of wkshts to file
seriously feel out of my element now
and in this all-impt year!
hah.just perfect

i dont think it ll work out
or that there s anything to work out
so why set myself up for a fall?
i overthink things

2005-02-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

hanging by a moment here with you
game was postponed due to the bad weather.
shahidah was funny; i try to walk away but i shoke.
we were all laughing like mad.its just one of those situations where its funny if you re at the scene itself.

i m not gonna overthink things.
off i go.

gaining fractions.

2005-02-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

high on cloud nine
service was great today
sonic edge was leading and worship was really good.
the guest pastor was really good too.
super funny and duper cute. ((:
finally went with sheranne to essential brews
heh.we re getting used to fine dining
drank dance of tea.sat there and talked a whole lot
formed some theories too
sheranne ; relationships are like businesses. hard to set up , hard to maintain too.
ness ; rships are like cars. if you go too fast, it ll crash.if you go too slow, it ll run out of steam and just break down.
heh.all in all, it was fun.and certainly interesting.
you.yes you.where are you.frowns. /:

2005-02-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

NETBALL B DIV 05 TOTALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS!
we re through to the second round! we were all so nervous right before the match.even mary, the "leng mei ren" had butterflies in her stomach. we played a brilliant match if i could say so. really controlled game with everyone working really well together.man i m just so proud of the team. (((:

2005-02-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

hands down

today rocks really
its been a fun day totally
first the extra time for recess
and wonderful lessons.
silas was freaking funny today.
begging sheranne like that. /:
training was superbly fun too.
loved it.
tuition was wonderful
though i didnt learn anything at all.
we shot this really funny video
its some drug commercial
and it was great fun really.
and best of all, my msns okay now!
man i m so psyched up about tmr.
its our last match
we MUST win. (((((:

2005-02-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

the greatest story ever told

today was pretty fun, all in all.
do feel rather guilty bout skipping so many lessons though.
we spent our time camping out in the 4th level toilet instead
hah. (((: it was fun
-
had a match with scgs today.
and b div netball babes are totally fantabulous.
we were doing really badly at first and were actually down in the first 3 quarters.but had real spirit out on court today,and fought really well in last quarter.i m just so proud of the team! we re so close to the national round.
we just have to beat outram on friday. i love those girlys! (((:
-
dang it. its nine alr.i m becoming dependant. /:
heh.nite all.

2005-02-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

beautiful disaster
flu is totally getting me down
my nose is all blocked up and all
and its been really hazy for the past 2 days.
ugh.
havent been updating for the past few days.
i ve just been so lazy.
not even doing any homework.
man i feel like a total pigger.
tmr will be a match against scgs.
we totally have to win it.
and outram too.really want both the b and c div to progress far in this yr s tournament. keeping my fingers crossed.

i ve been listening to music ever since i got back.and i ve not been doing any thing else.heh.music totally improves my mood. ((:

Buried deep as you can
Dig inside yourself,
And covered with
A perfect shell,
Such a charming
Beautiful exterior.
Laced with a briliant smile
And shining eyes
Perfect posture
But you're barely scraping by

2005-02-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

damn my situation
ahh.so entirely moodless.
utterly bored.
even the thought of tmr being saturday cant do much for my mood.
chinese test was rather screwed too.
the whole year so far is just getting me down.
and its only the eighteenth day of the second month?

it's the way
that he makes you cry
it's the way
that he in your mind
it's the way
that he makes you fall in love

please send me anything but signals that are mixed

its affecting me more than i would like it to.
> damn all this
get away.

2005-02-17T21:52:00.000+08:00

training was rather boring today.
oh ya.jnrs won outram ((:
rushed to tuition.
kevin is rather nice.
gave jacquelyn and i a free cab ride home.
(((:
im sooo screwed for chinese tmr
))):
its just a passing thing

2005-02-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

again i go unnoticed

havent been updating lately.
there just isnt much happening unfortunately.
ahh we ll see.
i hope i m not getting dependent.
darn.

2005-02-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

smeared mascara

my sissy s run off for a jog with a weird guy named cloud.
and i m stuck with a HUGE pot of steaming hot soup.
totally snivelling like an idiot. ))):

2005-02-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

do or die.
its one in the morning and i just cant get myself to sleep.theres itching noises echoing round the room cos swarms of ants or something are attacking my sis and i.and the only way to deal with those aggravating bites on our legs are to scratch at them savagely.

so i start thinking, in an attempt to put away these awful itches and fall asleep, dead to the world and all.and my life comes into review. last year was rather lucky for me. i didnt study at all but managed to get passable results.however thats not to say i didnt try. i wanted to do well last year, and there was a real motivation to get good results.this year however, falls short sadly. i just dont feel the urge to concentrate in class or study despite the fact that this is supposed to be most crucial year of my secondary school life. in fact , i rather hate school. literature lessons are spent nodding off.emaths are just free periods for sheranne and i.and the list goes on. i look forward to saturdays from the start of every week. i mean how awful is that? i ve totally lost the momentum and the worst thing is, i ve discovered i dont really care.

and so the show goes on.

2005-02-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

beautiful ones
today has been rather boring actually
mindy's off to taiwan.
lucky lucky girl

messed around with my blog a whole lot
and did some pictures for crisie's blog.
not really sure of its look though.
feels weird doing layouts aft such a long time.
so crisie ; when you read this, my msns down.
so i have no idea how to do yr layout to yr preference
tell me dearie! (:

happy cny to all.

2005-02-07T21:45:00.000+08:00

young and hopeless

we won queensway 57-2 today
played rather badly in the 4th quarter.
had like tons of footwork
just couldnt split evenly

ahh well.tmrs cny's eve.
(((: yay

2005-02-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

because you live
training was kinda nice and slackky today.
mary martha and i were chatting the whole way.
super funny.
just love them to bits. (((:

tuition was just a big big blur.
charmaine choo was darn crappy and horny.
ahh well.too lazy to blog further.
byeeee

2005-02-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

blame it on the weatherman

i feel awful.like really really awful. awfully guilty.i m so so sorry i wasnt a better friend. you re such a great friend.someone i really trust and really would pour my heart out to. you noticed that i was down and wrote me a lil msg just to cheer me up. when i read it, i really smiled wide. as for me, i knew that you were having problems but i just didnt give you the time of my day. i wished i was a better friend to you cos i really treasure you as a friend.somehow though we dont exactly talk all that much any more, you re still someone who's really like a lil sis to me. i just hope you ll be okay now. if you do get to read this, i do love you dearie! (((: cheer up yeah? and i def hope we ll be able to catch up sometime soon. i kinda miss you and your weird laughing actions.

2005-02-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

I AM ; ness (:
I WANT ; to get great o lvl results, to shop, the list goes on.
I HAVE ; great friends
I WISH ; things werent always so complicated
I HATE ; self absorbed pple, uncertainty, being alone, unhappiness and all vices in the world.
I MISS ; being sure of myself and situations around me
I FEAR ; failure, loneliness.
I HEAR ; great music playing
I WONDER ; why there are so many unhappy people
I REGRET ; not making things clearer at the start, missing the opportunity to help a friend that was really in need, not studying, many decisions, starting this whole mess again.
I LOVE ; my FAMILY, my BESTIES, SHOPPING, NETBALL, laughing without restraint.
I M ALWAYS ; sleepy , breathing.
I DANCE ; when i m happy
I SING ; in the shower
I CRY ; when i get hurt
I LOST ; a gazillion wallets and lots more.
I M CONFUSED ; about where things stand
I NEED ; clarity , cash, motivation to study.
I SHOULD ; strengthen my faith in god
I THINK ; i should start studying , swear off r/ships
do you keep a diary ; nope
do you like to cook ; not when i have to wash up
do you have a secret that you have not shared with anyone ; yepp.
do you believe in love ; definitely. life would be bleak without it.
do you think you re a health freak ; nope.
do you get along with yr parents ; at times.we have our moments.
favourite numbers ; not any in particular.
COLOURS ; red, white, olive green, GREEN
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ; choccies of course
SUSHI OR FISH FILLET ; sushi
THE BEACH OR THE MALL ; BOTH DEFINITELY
DAY OR NIGHT ; night

BOREDOM KILLS

2005-02-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

totally screwed up emath and physics.
enough said.

lit presentation was rather weird.
and now everyone has to redo
which means yet another day of draggin my basket around.
rahh

went to study after that.
had lotsa laughs but didnt manage to get any work done.
gawd i m so behind in emath.

2005-01-31T22:14:00.000+08:00

leonard had a dead lizard in his locker today.
superly gross.
it was kinda wet and maggotty and really really stinky.
first time i attempted to do sth that gross/daring
ahh well

i m an awful slacker today.
have 2 tests tmr that i am NOT gonna do anything about.
i m just sooo tired.and lazy.
god help me.

2005-01-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

innocent ;

today was an interesting day to say the least.
mel was late.
took neos that were rather repeititive.
watched an ultra stupid show.
the omen?
totally weak storyline.amazingly hard to follow.about some reincarnated dog?
ate giant earthquake.
sticky chewy chocolate? yum.
picking clothes for the guys to wear?
simply priceless.
absolutely fun.

2005-01-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

whatever tomorrow brings
i ll be there

service learning is on the way!
am so hyped up about it.
sure do hope i get my first choice
CHIANG RAI THAILAND
wheeeeee.it would be hell fun.

played some form of monkey after school today
melly sheranne and me along with 4d guys
it was hell fun.had a whole lotta laughs.
dodging in between the rows of tables and stuff.

training was okay.bathed after that.
with sherri providing lotsa background music.
super funny.
tuition after that.
and now theres like tons of stuff to do?
screamability level is HIGH

2005-01-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

beautiful ones
today was pretty okay.
amaths was kinda interesting.
chattered non stop.didnt absorb much.
left rather early too.wongys idea of course.
played bishan park today.
think the team did really well.
had a really controlled game.
here's hoping we can continue playing like that. (((:

kinda dreading tmr actually
it ll be such a long day
and there ll def nt be enough time to study for lit
rahh.i m screwed.
mums back from meet the parents.
thank god ms hia's hurt right now.
byeeee.

2005-01-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

funky mice

wheee.its been a gazillion yrs since i ve blogged.
today was a fun fun day
tmrs start of tournament.yay
cant wait

ahh well.
my coms awfully down.
which means i m gonna be on hiatus.
for an awfully long time.
so long.

2005-01-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

day ; horrible
sucky comments frm a sucky teacher

lousy play in match

dumb dream of pink braces
and metal keychains that shatter when it hits the ground

no homework done

halfway abandoned night run

awful realisation through friendster
truth dawns.
terribly hurting yet unable to confirm
most prolly true but significant fraction of self refuses to believe

DREADING SUNDAY.TOTALLY
me ; dumb shyt.
day ; sucks BIG TIME

2005-01-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

and if i should falter ;
would your arms be open

just spent a humongously long time trying to be allowed to use the computer
and guess what?

msn's down.
and there s nothing i can do about it

rahhh.totally defeats the purpose of begging so pitifully.
what a waste of time

mgs match tmr.sure hope we ll play well.
bye folks.

2005-01-09T21:14:00.000+08:00

everywhere i go holds a memory of me and you
its just so hard to let go sometimes.
i dont want to hold on any longer.
but it just seems so hard to give it all up
i dont want it to distract me
but thats all it seems to be doing lately

help me not bother again
help me not feel nervous anytime i see you

Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin

My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin

So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault

But I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up

I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed

And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see

But help me heal these wounds

2005-01-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

somehow i cant put you in the past
today was superly fun.
poor min was terribly stressed out aft sch
went to get the jerseys printed
and min became totally hyper after eating some kinder bueno?
making up silly songs and stuff like that.
totally potty
had lotsa fun

came back to school and the netballers behaved like such awful pigs while doing the notice board.
stuffing everything they could lay their hands on into their faces.
esp melly.hahs.
played box with the netballers too.hell fun
and watched the performances
rahh.i m tired.

2005-01-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

all that we had is gone
i miss you ;

school has quickly become routine all of a sudden
sleeping through classes has been something of a specialty now
ahh darn it
had pe today though
rather fun playing capts ball.
its been so long.
training was pretty okay today too.
((((:
tatas now.

2005-01-04T22:04:00.000+08:00

beatRHYTHMmix
things have been pretty bad lately
been quarelling with my mum like everyday?
ahh well.recap on the past days.
amaths test majorly sucked.
definitely failing single digit.
played friendly against eusoff hall
it was pretty cool that we won.
there were some really good players

anyhows, i ve been really awful during school
falling asleep in practically every lesson
missed the first a math lesson esp.
i m sooo dead
so hyped up about tournament.
just cant wait for it to come.

set my rather ambitious goals for o's ;
english - a1
emath -a1
amath -a2/b3
science -a1/a2
lit -a1
humans -a2/b3
chinese -a1

that would make my most positive l1r5 to be a grand total of 9 pts.
hopefully putting up on my blog in full view of everyone will push me towards actually achieving them.i just hope so

2005-01-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

gone ;
like yesterday is gone

went over to karos house yesterday.was supposed to be doing homework but lazy us ended up slacking like mad.and lucky disappeared for a whole long while.so we ended up walking around searching for karo's precious doggy.was real late meeting the girls.sat through the thanksgiving service.the kids at harvester aog are darn cute.a real joy to watch.saw wifey up on stage too.she managed to screw up one of her five lines.luckily it wasnt too obvious. ((:

cabbed down to town aft that.we were all real anxious. def didnt wanna do countdown in the cab.managed to reach in time and it was really havoc! super fun though.we were pretty defenseless when we reached there just trying to run away from all the foam and silly string that EVERYBODY was spraying around.we were attacked at all angles and quickly bought several cans to get back at everyone who sprayed us.it was SUPERLY fun! min's reaction was super funny.she kept trying to bao chi yi tai. totally useless cos she ended up being the one that screamed the most hysterically.heh.we all grouped together and defended one another.stupid nainai is a real traitor.she just left us hanging, getting sprayed by this awful group of guys in black while she ran away! but we soon got back at her. ((: heh. met the guys after that.we were suppose to alliance ourselves against the other pple but ended up attacking each other instead.had a super big foam war with the same group of guys in black that attacked us at first.still lost repeatedly though.ahh well.it was really really crazy and fun. managed to take quite a few pictures too.cabbed back to ohbasan's house after that.bathed and ate.we were like super hungry.after that just lay on the bed and talked till late.it was nice. ((((:

woke up and watched la bi xiao xing.tse and ohbasan's fave i guess. heh.tried to rush over to jp to catch meet the fockers too.but ended up spending our time in the arcade totally throwing our face away.
all in all, it was a great great GREAT ending to a pretty nice year. i really thank god that i was able to spend it with my girlies. (((:

to sherri, mindy,karo,tsemin,hz and baby;
you guys have totally made my year.being totally supportive when i felt really alone and stuff.just crapping around in the mornings and during recess.i love you guys! have a wonderful 2005 alrighty!

2004-12-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeee
was up real late last night
redoing my amaths hw.
stupid sherri is so bloodeh neat
that her work made me feel totally ashamed.
just had to redo it.

todays run was pretty okay.
had brekkie
and came back for da past vs present match
played sorta a mini carnival.
it was kinda fun
started game preparations after that
set off darn late.
and definitely on the wrong foot.
things were really screwed up at first.
cos almost everybody was unwilling to wear their pyjamas
luckily things picked up when the game started
everyone looked soo cute in their jammies
slacked around town with sherri too waiting for the groups to come find us.
had hell lot of fun trying to dodge them though
and seeing them do weird stuff in crowded areas was just simply priceless.

farewell was done after that.sec ones were simply cute!
and the sec 2s! simply sickening.made fun of meeeeee.
ahh well.for the snrs
did weird actions to accompany the speech too.definitely fun.

2004-12-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

i think i really had to wish to make this last i know

the past few days have been really hectic
planning the netball camp and stuff.
poor mindy slept like 3 or 4 hrs last night?
well it ll all come down to tmr
hope that the jnrs will really enjoy themselves.
i certainly do think its fun

today was pretty okay
didnt have as tiring a trng as i thought
physical was bad but real fun
played volleyball to lessen the punishment that we had to do
the more times we hit da ball into the air, the less physical we havta do
too bad my group was really bad at it though.
had hell lot of fun anw (((:
tmr will be a real killer though
a morning run to clementi at 7 in the morning?!
and training and a match after that?
pure torture

2004-12-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

to the person who tagged;
i guess i have a rough idea of who you are
i d just wish you come right out and leave yr name?
it would be nice to clear the air.
and i wouldnt havta suck up to anyone who's my best friend yeah.
i certainly hope we could all be friends.it would def be much easier
and i would like that. (:

2004-12-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

backbeat the word was on the street
that the fire in your heart is _out

poor sissy came home real late yest with stitches in her finger
and it was a whole bloody mess.
disgusting.silly girl slipped on the oily floor and broke the glass susan.
serves her right for being such an awful workaholic

training today was extremely slack.
spent majority of the time lying on the podium and chitchatting with pork.
did a whole lot of confirmation for the day camp stuff.
went to queensway to collect the tees after that
i must say they turned out pretty well
bussed to sherri s house after
and did some cards.
we were flipping through seventeen when we realised that best friends seem to look alike? which is kinda cool.sherri says it s cos we give out hormones all the time.and thats the reason you can get yr period at roughly the same time as the person you associate lots with.so that was pretty interesting.we had a long time laughing about that.
therefore i think ; to look better, get a best friend and transfer yr uglier hormones to him/her.
i just wonder whether there's any truth to the hormone thingy.
hmmm.ahh well.

2004-12-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

i'm walking down the line that divides me
somewhere in my mind
on the border line of the edge

was uberly bored in da late afternoon
started frantically calling everyone to go out
sherrianne choo had tuition
mindy had tuition
karolyn gan had tuition
on a sunday?!
waited for karo to finish her tuition
and quickly rushed to meet her
my prettaye ripcurl cap is gone.
totally bummed out
and i actually managed to forget to get my gorgeous
ripcurl bottle.
rahhh.i m getting old.
karo told me the list of my teachers too
totally awful
emath and amaths ; mdm quek
physics ; mr lim?
chem; ms thio
i can foresee a really boring school year ahead
man.i have a HUGE cookie craving right now

2004-12-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

i bet you think this song is about you
dont you

it finally hit me yesterday.things arent ever going to be the same again. and i guess i finally understand why. it was always bothering me that i wasnt too upset over this whole mess. but i guess it was just the lack of a proper reason that hindered the process of totally crying my heart out. now that theres at least a reason, i m not left hanging. guessed it would have never worked out anw.

i just wish i was wrong
that i didnt see what i saw
if i could just wish it all away -

2004-12-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin

yesterday was fun
sherri and karo came over to my hse
had a mad dash trying to decide what to wear
made our way down to meet the others really late
got to vch
we saw hz dance!
really cool
she looked totally different in pink!
walked off with chum.
hahs.horror of horrors
he was wearing a _ _ _ _ _
wandered around esplanade with karo
we were really lost
ate cotton candy too.
yumm
the atmosphere at esplanade was pretty nice
jazzy music and everything.
had a nice talk with my rooney.
felt really blessed yest
to be with my clique and some of my really close friends
it was nice to see hz, tsemin,baby and chia
after such a long time
sherri min and karo too.
i love you guys!

to my rooney;
you take care girly.i hope everything works out for you.and i do wish you would let it out. ((((((: i love you!

2004-12-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

beautiful trash

today was pretty satisfying.
got myself a pretty pair of pointy shoes
it was a nice day
shant elaborate
parted with my money for charitable causes
yet again
and i do declare
i hate the mrt
with funny pples hair tickling my face
and pple who lack common sense who try to squeeze themselves in the mrt while the pple inside are trying desperately trying to get out.
and obnoxious pple who do not move into big empty spaces.

2004-12-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

i walk alone
did my christmas cards
yay
shall post them off tmr.
excited about netball tees
i think they ll look sooo prettaye
rahhh.stupid sherri.
piggish girl is prolly watching tv
while i m slogging it out getting the design
-
anyhows.
finally got the taufik versh of aint no sunshine
-swoons.
it s really smooth and very niceee

2004-12-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

so take your words
empty promises

went to collect bursary today
entirely spastic
spent a whole amount of time waiting
and waiting
and waiting
luckily i met max.
went for tuition after that

2004-12-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

oggy oink
did a whole lot of rotting today
went to school.
discussed jersey and tee stuff.
went to rent vcds with porko aft that
we got a whole stack of shows that we sooo wanted to watch
turns out they re all nc16
was left with dreamcatcher
hope springs
and down with love
was suppose to change bus
but silly pork was too engrossed in yakking
and missed our stop
had the guts to blame me!
got forced into buying one of those ticket thingies

let me pause and rant awhile about all these so-called volunteers
they re absolutely horrible.making us feel totally guilty about how all those unfortunate pple will be suffering without our 5 dollar purchase of their coupons.they ply us with lots and lots of guilt, saying that we have allowances and stuff.but they themselves are soooooo obviously doing it for the commission.rahhh.disgusting hyprocritical porkuses.okay i m done

got to sherris house
and began a marathon of vcd watching
we absolutely loved the soundtrack of down with love.
the songs are very jazzy and really nice.
skipped hope springs and watched dreamcatcher
it was hell scary at first.
but became really dumb after seeing silver aliens with big slanted green eyes.
dont see why aliens have to fit in that kinda stereotype.
super boring.
started on my christmas card making too.
darn they all look awful.

2004-12-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

the hardest thing
went out with my sissy today
wonderful
got a metal pencil case from borders
that is just to die for
cant wait for the yr to start so i can use it
it s sooo absolutely pretteh.
got a fab new tee
and a wonderful belt too
its wonderful to have a sis thats working
got back and did a whole lot of hsework
but i m pretty happy nevertheless
cos i ve got a pretteh room now
gorgeous new stripey bedsheets on my bed
that match perfectly with my pink paper lantern
gonna sleep well tonight.
yay.just cant wait for bedtime ((((:

2004-12-16T01:03:00.000+08:00

dangit

i absolutely hate washing dishes
but thats all i ve been doing this week

i wake up
i wash

in the afternoon
i wash

at night
i wash

the monotony of my life is just excruciating
and my sis is having loads of fun
being a banquet waitress
meeting guys with weird names like cloud?
coming back at 1 or 2 in the morning
and keeping me awake
rahhhhhhhhh

2004-12-15T01:20:00.000+08:00

i ve waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true

got my homework from karo today
went to sherris after that
basically just rotted around there for awhile
met my sis and caught national treasure
it was pretty okay.
nicholas cage is like a fatter, balder versh of lara croft.
but the plot was pretty interesting.
it would be cool if it was real.
finally cut my hair too.
think its much shorter now

kinda tired now.
my mom is on this spring cleaning madness
just did like 3 hrs of packing?
god i have alot of junkk

2004-12-11T14:20:00.000+08:00

milk and cereal

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and milk
Milk and Cereal
Cereal, Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk,
Cereal and Milk...

I dont want my Wheaties
Give 'em to the needy
Feelin kinda greedy
I keep them for myself (X9)
No Grapenuts for grandma(grandma eats a bran muffin)
Mom likes Special K
You cant pinch an inch (X7)
They're magically delicious
Keep your hands off my Lucky charms
(pink hearts, yellow moons,blue diamonds, green clovers)
A is for Apple J is for Jack
You step on a crack
Youll break your moama's back
Rice Krispies
Blue Berries
Ooh Boo Berry

Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk
Milk and Cereal
Milk and cereal
cereal cereal
Milk and Cereal
Cereal and Milk(Cheerio-eo-eo)

In the morning
At your table
Milk and Cereal
Snap Crackle Pop (X7)
Cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs (X8)
Trix are for kids! (X11)
In the morning
At your table
Milk and Cereal(X7)
No Grapenuts for Grandma
Grandma eats a Bran Muffin

go www.milkandcereal.net

2004-12-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

today is gonna be the day
that they re gonna throw it back to you
match against cgs today.my play was horrible.rahhhh
went with porkus to look at jerseys.so excited about the design.
got back.and my day sucked from there.
i absolutely hate my dad at times

2004-12-09T23:19:00.000+08:00

THE OBLONGS ROCK
and i just caught the oc.it rocks too!
i m so hooked

crapping along with rooney now.she s a darn big cheat alright.
and thick skinned too.and we re capping around like mad.
as in we re talking like THIS ALL THE WAY. ((((:
i love rooney AT TIMES.hah!

2004-12-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

back from training.
darn tired.friendly with cgs tmr.
hope we do well.
carnival on sunday.
looking forward to it.
and a final shopping spree

gawd i m dumb.what a waste of time.finally deleted.
))))):

2004-12-07T21:57:00.000+08:00

i love karo. ((=

today was fun.
went to sentosa with joanie,sirong,loke, alson and nathan.
or rather [one eighth two c]
joan was uber high the whole day.
played volleyball at first.
and i do concede defeat
i m simply lousy at it.
everytime i hit the ball,it goes off in the wrong direction
and it hurts so darn much
aching forearms.
played touch rugby
it was hell fun
scrambling around in the sand
also made a turtle with joanie.
it was really really nice.
and it was named "tilly the turtle" by joanie and i
(((((:

uhh.just thought i would make a disclaimer here.
the 10 statements below?
i have to make clear that itdoesnt mean you re any less my gd friend if you re not included.
have many good friends that i havent included
partly due to the fact that there are only 10 spaces?
so yeah. ((((:

if you think about it, jane is definitely not a plain jane. i mean, there is the band "jane's addiction" and "songs about jane" right?!"
-stephanie loh,17
just found that hilarious
currently at karos house.
anyone free between 7 and 10 tmr?

2004-12-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

write 10 statements intended to different pple.never tell which one is who

1] one word to describe you my dear ; BESTIE! we ve been best friends for like 3 yrs? and i so totally appreciate YOU. your blurness and everything.we ve been through quite alot.squabbling,bitching, EVERYTHING.you are an amazing girl who sees the good in just about everyone and i m glad to have such a nice and level headed friend as you. you ve always been someone i could turn to or yak on the phone with. and yr passion to taiwanese/chinese [?] dramas is amazing.you really shouldnt watch so much tv.hahaha.and sleeping? thats like yr major pasttime.no matter where we go, you ll always be the one to fall asleep first on whatever public transport we happen to take. better wake up porkky. theres an amazing amount of stuff that i love about ya. the way you take about forever to pack yr locker, the way you can laugh about anything, the way we fool around acting out adverts for kotex, the way your phone is useless to you, the way you totter around in heels, the way our taste in stuff is sooo similar.just about EVERYTHING.anyhows.just wanna tell you that i really appreciate ya.and i hope we ll always always be besties!! ((((: LOVE YA!

2] you.there was a time when we were really really close.you re amazing.you cracked me up and you still do. you listened to my probs. you let me listen to yours. you bullied me in a nice way.and let me bully you like mad. you always gave me someone to compete with in terms of results, though you always won.hahs.now, we dont talk as much as we used to, and we dont talk like we used to. things are different now.and i honestly think that you ve made the same mistake again. the first time turned out alright in the end, but now? i dont know. i dont really approve of what you re doing but it is def up to you. i hope that whatever you do or have decided to do, you ll be happy aight? thats all i wish for you. (: take care!

3] ahhas. you! funny funny girl.yr cheery smile never fails to improve my mood a lil as it crinkles up yr already small eyes. you should know who you are. my dear girl, thanks for being my bestie. i really appreciate you.LOTS. your replying my latenight breakydowny msg.your gymming with me. to my dear girl, i dont wanna see you cry anymore yeah.as you said, jerks aint worth it! one day, you ll meet someone totally unjerky and that person will love you alone wholly for the wonderful smiley, weird pronunciation, small eyed, cant stop laughing, easily drunk girl that you are.and you definitely will get your a's for o's yeah. dont you worry.take care! (((: besties always.

4] you.you were someone i kinda considered like a best friend. after spending so much time talking. i didnt believe, and was unwilling to.but unknowingly,i slowly let myself go.i was happy.real happy. didnt know that i could be that happy really. i wasnt used to such amazing niceness.and i totally fell for it. superbly dumb of me. but thats how a girls like at times. they can be totally blinded and trust unwaveringly. the first time it happened, i was crushed.totally. just 3 days and it got me real neurotic. hahs.thinking back,it was superbly funny.after that, stuff happened.stuff that made me really confused.stuff that seemed to me stuff that brought us closer.guess i was wrong.the next time, it was longer? didnt make a fuss this time,i think i got used to it. then it happened. that wk i thought about lotsa stuff. you certainly gave me the chance to think with your silence. i thought of endless scenarios and i analysed them endlessly. my friend said that i kept asking myself questions and making myself think the worst? but it did happen. you stopped. after a week or so? just like that. you told me so emotionlessly.all that i suspected, suddenly confirmed just like that. and your reason? pathetically lame.which only led me to think that it wasnt real all along? how could something that you claimed be gone in the space of one week? needless to say, i was hurt.terribly. you said it was a matter of trust.and inn instant, its just gone like that? and your attempts to make it better have flopped terribly. i m not that sad.but i am angry.i just didnt expect it of you. i knew it was coming.i just wished it wasnt you.anyhows, its over now. and i m glad it happened now rather than later. hahs.i m just angry that you said that we could be good friends? but the way you talk to me, its obvious that you dont want any part in that.so thats fine. somehow, i seem to be alright now.

5] you! funkaye girl! my dear wifey! girl with a hole in her shoe. hearttalker and advice dispenser.thanks for being my bestie dearie. i m glad that somehow we ve drawn closer in this past yr alone. you re an amazing friend. always there for me. i love the way our tastes are so similar, the way we pig out [ esp on gelato], the way you crack me up always, the way we are supposed to study and end up slacking, and lots lots more. i m glad to have you as my friend.and i m immensely proud that you re letting go, or have let go.i just pray that i ll be next in line. (: anyhows.this is just to let you know i love ya! i am pretty sure that you know who you are by now ((((: besties always!

6] hey you. we re not really close.but i m glad that i know you.if not for the supply of music you give me. hahhas.ahh of cos thats not the reason for this 'dedication' to ya, my learned friend. you make me laugh. and thats a fact. i know yr pretty down now, so i hope you read this. cheer up. its not always as bad as it seems. maybe it wasnt enough this time.but it ll be enough soon enough or next time. [note the use of song name by gd charlotte (: ] you had better be happy. thats what i ll be praying and hoping for you. and you can take this as purely selfish on my part, afterall if you re down, you cant crack me up. so you better quickly cheer up. things WILL get better. SMILE!!! (((((:

7] you.i m sorry i havent been keeping up to my part of the bargain. we had some gd times and bad times. i m sorry for all the hurt i ve prolly caused you.you re a great person really.you re funny.and really smart. just put in the effort and do well alright. take care! (((:

8] heyya moomoo.thanks for listening to me. thanks for msging me just cos you saw someone. thanks for rotting with me along in the library.thanks for abandoning me for one day.thanks for buying dinner with me. thanks for taking that cute vacuum.thanks for ranting for me in yr blog at that awful anorexic freak. thanks for raving madly with me over anand. thanks for being my friend! (((:

9] hey you? can you hear me? i dont understand the things you do sometimes. i ve got life.but what for? could you kindly enlighten me down here. there are things you do in my life that i find hard to understand.and your recent dealings in my life, i totally cant fathom.it hurts sometimes.very bad. but then i remem that you have given me many friends to help me along the way. friends that i totally thank you for. and sometimes, when theres shouting all around me, i do remem the times when i m happy with the same shouting voices. and my studies, i m glad that you gave me these results by your mercy.i havent really studied at all.and i do sorely regret it. i m sorry for being such a awful follower too. i hope you ll help me in my walk with you and that i ll be able to concentrate on the more important matters in my life.

10] ahhh you. lousyness.you dont put in enough effort.you dont study and yet aspire to do well. sometimes i cant stand the sight of you. you place importance on such alot of wrong stuff.and allow yourself to get hurt in the process.dumb old you. better wisen up. dont set yourself up for a fall again.and better stop typing away before this gets self-centered.

yay.i m done.

2004-12-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

it wasnt enough
pretentious cowardy custard

was at the gym yesterday.rooney and i spent like an hour there? we re the epitome of lousiness.went back to school to play abit of netball.the juniors are so wonderfully wonderful.went to the polyclinic after that.and basically was with my sis for the whole day. she s real silly. bought this pair of white canvas shoes and dotted it in white and black using a paintbrush. its so densely covered in dots that it really looks moldy.eeeeek.totally gross

my mum has been acting really weird lately.she s been trying to strangle me.literally putting her hands on my neck like thrice in the past 2 days? maybe i ve been a tad bit too annoying to her.i m starting to fear for my life here.hahs.my mum is cute.she just came out of the bathroom feeling very pleased with herself cos she says that her nightgown matches wwith her bedsheet? she s practically blending into the background of pink. funny mummy.

2004-12-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

peering out at the world

through rose tinted glasses

god.i m so bored i m quite sure i m rotting
of course not in the physical sense of the word
but it certainly feels like it
and theres no oc today!
the one thing to look forward to.
man.i sound pathetic
seriously suffering from oc withdrawal symptoms.

they say blogs are meant to be yr online diary but who really puts all their feelings on the line? so the next logical purpose would be to rant.
so rant i shall.and since theres nothing at all to rant about, i shall rant about bathtubs.i mean.there seems to be no purpose for them.they re meant to allow you to keep clean and stuff.but you only end up sitting in a huge pool of dirty bath water.so what is the point of having bathtubs exactly? guess theres no way of knowing

will be gym-ming with rooney tmr.cant wait.and i cant believe i managed to type a paragraph on bathtubs and their usefulness.
god i m bored.

2004-12-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

why don’t we hit restart and stop it at our favourite parts
we ll skip the goodbyes if I had my way
I d turn the car around and runaway

wheeeeeeeee.taufik won! man.i m so happy. i really thought sly would win.ahh well.taufik rocks.he s so amazingly cute.sooo gonna get his album when it releases.

had a match with ctss today.
twas horrible.
cdiv won.but bdiv lost
performance was totally horrible and not worth mentioning.
went to imm with wong,min and rooney after that
just so wong could get her lip buttery thingy
shared a meal with rooney at crunchy carrot.
rooney and min left soon after that
and wong and i actually walked around imm
which is kinda pathetic cos all you see are aunties
and there s absolutely nothing nice there.
made our way to jec.
sat there.
had a nice looooong chat.
we were talking about fat shit and others.
it was kinda funny to see how frighteningly similar it was
ahh well.

thought that i would be really upset over this? behave totally neurotic? but i ve turned out okay. no hysterical screaming or pulling out of hair.havent been crying myself to sleep either. guess maybe min's right, maybe it wasnt as much as i thought it was. but i am fairly pissed though.lost a pretty good friend.and what you say can only be backed up by how you behave? you dont wanna say that you wanna be good friends and not be able to have a fairly civil conversation at the same time right.

ahh well.my bodys aching.i m off

2004-12-01T13:43:00.000+08:00

shes seen all the classics

she knows all the lines

so i typed out this nice long post on teen angst.
and the power trips.
just great

anyhows.i just wanna tell my besties how greatful i am to them for being always there for me. i love you guys!

I wish I was brave

I wish I was stronger

I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young

I wish I was shy

I wish I was honest

I wish I was you not I

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused, again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

SometimesI wish I was smart

I wish I made cures for

How people are

I wish I had power

I wish I could lead

I wish I could change the world

For you and me

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused, again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused, again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callused

So lost, confused, again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

-i feel so / box car racer

2004-11-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

true-ryan cabrera

so i had this looooonnnnnnnng talk with my mum today.after she got news that i finally got bursary after sooo many years. she was telling me that we really needed every scholarship or bursary that i could get.and i just realised that my dad seriously earns very little.and we are really broke right now? so ya.that took me quite long to actually realise.how dumb yeah. feel really guilty right now.and so i resolve to cut down on expenses and work harder to do very well so that my parents can pay as little as possible in terms of education wise.

anyhows.was totally rotting today.didnt do any homework as i had planned.which was totally awful.basically just slacked around the house reading.i ve finished 3 books today.2 of which is too highly intellectual that i dont even understand a single thing.and one that takes such little brain power that i m convinced that my intellect was decreasing rapidly as i read.

rahh.

horrible horrible day.

i need something to hold on to but you dont even care.

you're not even there.

2004-11-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

So don't go away say what you say
But say that you'll stay
Forever and a day...in the time of my life
Cos I need more time yes
I need more time
Just to make things right
Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Me and you what's going on?
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are _wrong

so i m grounded.
for the whole month.
excluding class functions and stuff
wonderful huh.
great.can see the whole month stretching out ahead of me
man.the thought of the boringness of it
is just totally freakky
guess i should be doing my work though
theres tons and tons of it
and i havent even started

totally no inspiration for bloggin today.
not even any random thoughts
and i really dont wanna just recount my whole day
so guess i ll stop off here.
and until i have sth intelligent and thought provoking to say,
bye world.

2004-11-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

I ll try to make it seem okay
Though my faith is wearing thin

was just thinking of murphys law.murphys law states that whatever can go wrong will go wrong. a good example given is that when buttering a piece of bread, if the bread drops, the chances of it dropping on the buttered side is much higher than the chances of it dropping on the unbuttered side. guess its really true at times. everytime you think somethings all perfect, theres bound to be something that messes it up? like when yr late, there always seems to be something that just has to make u later.what a total bummer huh.

cant believe it.how can there be absolutely nothing to say? its just a matter of whether you would want to right.what a way to put it. so much to ask and clarify.ah crap.

2004-11-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

there you go walking down the street
away from me, you turn and run
left me waiting here again
shouldnt i have realized that a long time ago?
take your empty words and broken promises AWAY
give it away to someone else
i m making the change now and you dont have to say anything
sad excuses and false hopes high
i saw ^this coming
still i dont know why
i let you in
im makin a change
im living the day
im giving back what you gave me
i dont need anything.

today was fun.went out with sherri. seemed like so long since i ve seen her cos of work experience. sherri came in heels that she cant balance in. she was tripping like after every other step.it was funny. watched bridget jones diary; the edge of reason. man it really rocks.it s soooo sweet and funny.british humour is really rich.cos it s so sarcastic.and it totally kickstarts my craze over colin firth again.he's not handsome or anything but he's oh-so-charming.and bridget jones is really easy to identify with somehow.her feelings of desponess and her actions were just really funny.but somehow sad when you realise it's quite common for many girls to feel what she feels? sherri and i totally loved the show. did some shopping after that. theres so many things i wanna get but just cant find?! dangit. was so reluctant to go to tuition after that shopping spree.

tuition was awful.permutation and combination.and one pompous ass that i shant name.irritating idiot.got me so pissed after tuition.superduperultra jerkky mania. crazy freak of nature. ass that s totally full of himself. only one word for that; yuck.this pig totally pissed me off, first by making many insulting references to my admittedly dark skin colour.which is no crime cos i m used to it.but it was too much.really insulting. next, that idiot actually made some reference to my stream. what an ass. if he thinks he s so good just cos he s in pure science, he can bloody well go stuff his head in a hole in the ground cos his character is sooo nauseating it makes me wanna puke. i certainly think most of my classmates are much much more intelligent than this know it all. also,this total PIG kinda "hit" me. i was irritated by his earlier references so i did the same.and he actually did it back! childish freak. finally, the last straw, he criticised my dressing! whats wrong with green and black?! he told me that i shld have worn a white skirt instead?! i mean.who died and made him the fashion police? and if i do have awful fashion sense, then its my problem and its too bad if i m a fashion victim isnt it? ahhh.feel much better now. my rants over.but he better not irritate me again or i ll totally chew off his head! grrrrrrrr.

anyhows.me and chia are still feverish over anand nalachandran; super duper charming person and lawyer extraordinaire.we really should have taken a photo with him.but just didnt have the guts too. darn

feeling kinda pathetic and low right now. i didnt know that the placings for the umpiring course is already out. i really wanted to go? and i think its too late now.ahh crap.it would have been really fun.esp with my fellow rooney. and i m darn pathetic. to be cheered up just cos of a tag? thats just sad.real sad.

ah well.bugger it.

2004-11-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

multicoloured gummy bears.

i loved today totally.bussed down to pples park and actually arrived at subcourts without harm.the trial got off to a slow start.it was an insurance scam case featured in the news previously.it was kinda interesting.the public prosecuter had style.gosh.he totally closed down the defences case.too bad.cos the accused was really really nice.we went for lunch with all his friends and relatives at furama hotel.buffet spread.i thought it was a really nice gesture on his part as chia and i were just students coming along for the ride.he was really really nice to us.hope he ll be alright in the end. (:
i was going totally mad today.kinda on some high.

went to meet min.and shocking ; she was actually on time! gosh.i cant remember the last time mindy ng minli was on time.real big news.ate, walked around, took neos.the machine was awfully spastic.really obiang backgrounds and stuff. had fun.shall be uploading all the recent neos later.

thought of the day -
defences should never be let down ; afterall all you get is the pin point of isolation. kinda like this phrase right now.it seems kinda true to me. sometimes it s just so hard to trust pple or believe what they say. to me, it really takes alot to be able to put all my faith into a person and what he/she says.i mean, theres always this thought that the person might not be altogether truthful to you, and what happens if you do decide to bare your heart to such a person? the results would be disastrous.rahh.yet another depressing thought. man these thoughts do bog me down nowadays.what a waste of my time.

sometimes i wish i didnt know you

2004-11-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

california here we come ;

currently at chia's house now. came over to bake brownies and ended up staying over.hee.i love my mum.watched the oc.man i m so hooked onto that show.totally love it.would someone pls dl season 2? its like reallly really really addictive.rahhh. anyhows.we wrote notes for some of the pple who have been nice to us in harry e, or rather the pple who didnt totally ignore us. hope they ll like the brownies.cos it smells really yummy.

did alot of delivery work today.guess i can be counted as some sort of cheap labour.delivering court documents from one place to another.twice in one day! ahh.well.it was better than staying in the office. spent most of today reading up on some of the law reports that were in the library.its like the law history of singapore, dating back to 1990-something. it was kinda interesting cos it was listed out in detail.and now i m quite sure thats what i wanna do in the future.i ve always been really indecisive but now i m fairly certain that i wanna be a criminal lawyer. it will definitely be more interesting than being some civil lawyer that deals mostly with paperwork.seriously,being a lawyer really has lotsa perks. i mean, you get to cab around like everywhere and yr firm usually covers yr expenses? and you get off days as long as you dont go to court.not to mention yr high pay? and the satisfaction you must feel at putting away some awful rapist or killer. [ let me sidetrack for a moment.there was actually this 17 yr old who raped 2 girls, molested 2 and committed 2 acts of outrage of modesty.real sick.and he got sentenced to 20 yrs.and 6 strokes.which is not nearly enough i feel.i mean to commit such awful stuff at such a young age? ugh. :/ ]

anyway.my work wk will be ending tmr.yeah.no more boring days chatting on an awfully laggy com. no more stamping.no more filing.and most of all, NO MORE BLISTERS!
what i ve benefitted
-i can walk in high heels without looking like a complete ass
-i know wheres the high court and the sub court
-i got to see what office life is like
-i know that to get a place to eat in raffles place, you MUST place tissue paper packets on top of yr seats as a form of chopeing the place
-lawyers use real funny english, like learned friend?
- i ve found a really sweet and crappy partner in my wonderful chia!
-i got to know MR ANAND NALACHANDRAN, the coolest lawyer!

off to go write some notes now.its gonna be real fun out with min and chia tmr! yeah!

2004-11-25T09:49:00.000+08:00

and somethings breaking up.and i give up

took this off min's blog."its very saddening to think this may be the primes of our life and we just waste it feeling sad. but its not anything we can help to soothe but rather what situations and emotions put us through, i mean who likes being depressed all the time ? we get all the hype and fun during the day, laughing and having fun with each other but when it gets to the night, when youre alone in the room, everything just boils back to you and just you. raw emotions of the hurt and pain just find their way back to where it all begin, within yourself. you cant stop yourself from thinking, it just keeps playing.. but it seems the more you try to break away, the more you are sucked deeper into the whirls of pain, and the spirl goes on." think she puts it so well.and i really agree with her.it IS sad that we re wasting this portion of our lives on this kinda thing,the whole of the clique is down because of relationships with one person or another.i m sure even sherri has her own share of problems though she doesnt really express it. i just hope that the clique would be able to let go of some of the past relationships that have broken down.i mean.why hold on to something thats not there anymore? it is easier said than done but i m sure we all can get through this.especially with each other. ((: so cheer up ; my girlies.take care of yrselves! i love you guys!

on a lighter note, i am still horribly bored at harry e. totally rotting. and chias not here! that girl has left me to my own defences and gone for choir farewell.how horrible.hope i do get something to do instead of blogging,chatting,reading and messaging.and the com is just killing me.its so darn slow.anyhows.will be going to chia s house later in the night to bake brownies for some of the office staff who have been like real nice to us. yay! can pig out on brownies.cant wait! ((((:

2004-11-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

there she goes ;

chia and i went mad today.we were singing songs real loud in the library.being totally crazee.found a fellow jayfan.its been a long while since i ve listened to some of the old cds.also followed mr anand to court.for some drug case and some rioting case.it was kinda interesting somehow.seeing one of the lawyers sit there in front of the judge made chia and i really motivated to be up there too.wheeeeee.it d be soooo fun.

also it was this aftnoon that i really really found anand really nice.chia and i have got "anand fever".mann.he really rocks.he has this super cool black car.very sporty and nice. and he s like super nice.while everyone basically ignores us, he talks to us and offers to bring us to court and stuff. he even tried to find a lawyer for us to tag tmr because he s gonna be off.and he s like super charming.the way he talks is just really nice.he s super funny.chia and i kept laughing.and his presentation in court was like really diff from mr subhas.he was soooo relaxed.and the way he talks in court is like so at home.ahhh.darn.he wont be in work tmr.what a bummer.

we served up some papers to a law firm today too. at uob plaza.its a really tall building.you even have to switch lifts just to get to the higher floors.and the lift is reallly nice.chia and i were like woahhhhh.after that,we were walking along clarke quay when it started raining.it was hell fun. there we were in our work clothes and my awful heels, running through the rain.must have really looked pathetic.we even took shelter under some metal statues of men holding umbrellas in front of fullerton hotel.we were like laughing all over.it was really enjoyable.

anyhows,will be going to work alone tmr.rahhhh.its gonna be sooooo boring without my crapping partner. ))): pple better stay online!

the degree of betrayal is equal to
the eloquence of the cry of pain

2004-11-24T09:16:00.000+08:00

walk away

Hey girl, what is the matter?
You're crying your heart out again.
Don't lie girl
This was not some accident,
Your bruises they give you away.
Your face sighs in shades of purple,
Your eyes tell a story of pain

Walk away,
You're worth more than he'll ever realize,
Baby walk away
Spare yourself this pain
Can’t you see that he's not worth it?
You're not meant to be treated this way,
Baby walk away

You say that you really love him,
You say that he'll notice someday
But your face still sighs in the purple,
Your eyes tells a story of shame.
Walk away

You're worth more than he'll ever realize
Baby walk away,
Spare yourself this pain,
Can’t you see that he's not worth it?
You've been waiting for his love for so many years
Well girl, you may not live to see that day

Baby walk away
You’re not meant to be treated this way
Baby walk away
Baby walk away
Baby walk away

beautiful song by corinne may.mindy sent it to me last night.and i think its really meaningful and really really nice.

bored now.as usual.can more pple come online in the morning to keep chia and i company.PLEASE! esp on thurs alright.cos then i ll be alone

2004-11-23T16:01:00.000+08:00

you beautiful thang

i was being awfully silly last night.anyhows.mindys back.hahs.real short trip i guess.

at harry elias now.with one and a half hrs more to go to the end of the work day.today was waaaaaaaay more productive then yesterday.chias father sent us to the high court where we attended our first trial.it was this rape trial.and it was kinda cool.and saddening.as the victim was already married and 4 mths pregnant at the time of the incident.the accused was also really well spoken and looked real decent.you really cant judge a book by its cover.he used a toy pistol, knife and a bottle filled with what he called acid to threaten the victim.and he did stuff to her.the thing is he had a girlfriend? dont see why he had to go prey on such an innocent person.the victim was like crying during the trial though it happend last yr.real poor thing.

after that got back to the office.and did more stamping.as usual.then went to the accounts dept and sorted out this huge mountain of accounts to file.mann.its reall boring around here.and theres so few pple online to talk to.

2004-11-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

all that we were is gone
i m backk! one day of work is overr! wheeeeeee. went to get chia white shirt after work.hee.bought sweets.i m on a sugar high right now.bound to get diabetes sooner or later.i m soooo in love with gummy bears once again. their officially my new fixation.

anyhows.shout outs are here.
sis ; thanks alot jie.yr really a gd talker.thanks for putting things in perspective and staying up with me.and putting up with my yellowcard songs last night even though i know you absolutely hated it just cos it made me feel better.(((:
karorooney ; super sweet of ya.i totally love ya to bits. (:
huizhen; i m glad you liked the link.and i m glad things are okay.thanks for the concern shown as well.hee.love ya zhennie!

2004-11-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

^way away _away from here i ll be

somebody save me right about now.its darn boring at harry elias.met chia and made our way to republic.spent the first hour doing nothing literally. just sitting there and rotting.did some stamping after that.real brainless activity.just stamp.take away.stamp take away.doesnt take much to figure out how to do that. after that had nothing to do at all.slacked around in the library at the law firm.trying to read the law books.but they re ultra tough.and i dont understand a single thing.certainly cant see myself as a lawyer in the future at this rate.and so far, i ve done nothing productive except stamping.and i ve been msging like non stop just to while the time away. my bill is gonna be superr high now.just came back from lunch.and still have about 3 and a half more hours to go before letting off work. I CANT WAIT.god i m bored.ohh ya.before i forget.met this really cute guy.mr tan.he s super nice.and funny.he takes his job like damn seriously.he seems to think that stamping stuff is like the most crucial event of the century or sth. keeps reminding chia and i "stamp in the center arh.try not to go to the side if not cannot see know?"and he s like full of funny comments like " i brought them to eat the $2 rice.for 4 items! very cheap." hahs.funny uncle.he s entertaining me a lil at least.

whee.seriously.bored outta my mind. just 1 and a half more hour left till the end of my work day.me and chia are darn lame.sitting at adjacent coms.but still chatting with one another.and my com is super lousy.its lagging like mad..and the letters take like a minute to appear.its totally awful.rahhhhhh

2004-11-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

broken this fragile thing now.
cant pick up the pieces.
i feel so broken up and i give up.
here i go scream my lungs out trying to get to you.
i let go but theres just no one that gets me like you do.
i cant hold on for too long
somethings breaking up
here i go so dishonestly
and i know you can see right through me
if ever you ~~loved me.~~
we came together but you left alone
theres nothing for me here.its all the same
letting out the noise inside of me
every window pane is shattering
cutting up my words before i speak
this is how it feels to not believe
please just dont play with me
my paper heart will bleed
to settle for less is not what i prefer
my hope is feeling worn
i am hanging on every word you say
looking past the shadows of my mind into the truth
I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground

wild mess of lyrics there.just think that all these one liners are really meaningful.they suit my mood right now.went to science center today.through some weird arrangement of my mum. guess i ve grown up too much for it.found it really boring.still remember the pri school excursions where we used to run around in that huge place and play with all the exhibits.used to find it really fun. i d do anything to experience that again.

will be meeting chia real early tmr.taking bus down to shenton way.cant wait for my attachment to start sooner. laid out all my stuff and i m totally raring to go. hope this week i ll be able to keep myself occupied.

feel awful this few days.already i m missing my heart talker.mindy ng min li.where are youuu?! suddenly feel this need to unload on her.she really gives good advice.and she s a real sweetie.look below at the previous post! ((((: sure cheered me up alot there.

nicolette sum!this cute lil jnr of mine.saw my nick and asked me not to break down.asked me to go to this link. hell sweet of her.go see! click here

2004-11-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

girl when we laugh and we cry its together
through the rainy and stormiest weather

HELLO
xianggong ! (:
hearttalker ! (:
xinghui loyal worshipper ! (:
cheryl crazy fan-see ! (:
unpretty / uncute senior ! (:
strawberry candy striper ! (:
fellow part time defending coachie ! (:

im leaving in another 12 hours time ! (:
and i know you would miss me yes ? HAHA
oh my gosh that sounds so thick skinned
okay, I WILL MISS YOU LAHH.
and happy first day working on monday missy lawyer loh ?
dont screw up harry elias's photocopier machine or anything kay.
and i forsee youre gonna have difficulty walking in the court shoes ive lend you, HAHA.
well, the first thing i wanna do when i get back is to have lunch with you and chia !
ill make sure i see you pretty women in black blazers and court shoes, HEH.

okay, in the meanwhile CHEER UP (:
dont think sad thoughts, they make nessie sad.
smile ! cause erm your pearly whites would brighten up your erm dark face ?
HAHA thats so crude of me to joke about, im so bad.
but my point is JUST BE HAPPY lahh :D haha

yupp ! i guess this would be it.
you take care alright
LOVE YA (:

min (:

2004-11-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

a world of illusion; but baby yr true
bussed down with mindy to catch the carnival today.kept poor min from her sleep.chatted a long while on the whole way.i m soooo mood swingy. but guess min's right. sadness is the norm for us huh. hahs.anyhows.i love mindy ng minli.she rocks.she s a totally great bestie and i m real grateful.thankies dearie!

gosh. i love the jnrs.they so totally rock. they managed to get 2nd in the entire carnival!!! i love them! they re all super cute.even stupid cuifen who says that i m unpretty. nicolette with her cute hairstyle.gina with her funny comments. all of them! and i sooooo love xinghui !!!! she is totally b div material.gosh.her jumps are like super nice.and i m totally mad about her. she even managed to get several balls while defending someone 20 cm taller than her!!! chao zai. mann. i love her.saw lotsa zai netballers around too. wheeeeeeee.

went for dinner with mr ng and esther after tuition.it was really funny to see mr ng on his motorbike.he looked totally out of place.cos the bike was like really big.and he s like kinda small? it was darn funny.

2004-11-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

aura is your glow
its the magnetic beauty
that emanates from you after excercise

its that top of the world
top of your game
perfect sense of peace that flows through you

its unbattleable,unbeatable
unattainable through anything but you
fuel your aura

plmgss match was today.the whole team was like frantically tieing hair before the match.it was kinda funny.tied sherris,marthas,mindys and sherannes.tiring for sure. went for the match next.they were total brutes.the way they played was super scary.bai de and i were like uber pissed at the gk.but we both got our revenge. (((: won them too.jnrs drew.which was kinda wasted.think they were the betta team.

sg idol was on just now.mann i just love taufiq.wheeeeeee.i hope he wins.
he rockks!

will be heading down for jnrs carnival tmr.hope they do well.

2004-11-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

i LOVE karo.
((=
she rocks my worldd.
whee
jamies second.

o-kay.that was so obviously not me.the ever thick skinned karorooney typed that.i m at her house with jamie right now.really really tired.just wanna go home and slp reeeeeaaaaaaaallly long.

yesterday
went swimming with karo.gawdd.i m darn slow.totally cannot make it. karo was like a lap ahead of me.and i was struggling to keep up.every time i resurfaced.i would see karo like a whole lap up in front of me. totally gave up in the end.

went for tuition.blahblahblah.

met sam at orchard.tm and hz were hell late.ate at taka.and gelato is totally delicious.sinful but deathly delicious.dark chocolate is seriously the best.it had a really rich chocolate taste,cool and sweet.wheee.it was darn nice.

made our way to cine after that.played cs for the first time.so that was kinda cool.it was quite boring at first.cos i kept getting killed like real fast.and i mean really fast.like every few steps that i went, i found myself dead.couldnt even keep the cursor in the center of the screen.think tsemin was reall frustrated with me.hahs.but she patiently taught me.and i even managed to kill huizhen 3 times? while she killed me like 20+ times lahh.mindy came along.that girl is super pro at cs.though she screams alot while playing.

watched the forgotten after that.it was really really nice.very interesting storyline.and really sad at first.mindy and i were like screaming everytime the pple disappeared.it was really really nice

walked around orchard after that.it was darn silly and fun. we were running, screaming, singing obiang songs.and we even busked outside paragon.too bad nobody appreciated mindys rendition of jingle bells.

cabbed down to mindys house after that.dumped our bags at her house and went for a nightwalk.it was darn creepy.we got scared at the silliest things really.quickly rushed back to her house and climbed over her gate.did a whole lot of silly stuff before watching stars with hz,tm and min.it was really really pretty cos the sky was really clear over at mins house.we saw 4 shooting stars.it was just so nice.the four of us lying down there.we had a nice long chat.about crushes and stuff.i love my girlies!

today;
dragged my way through trng.totally hated it till courtwork.went to orchard after that with jamie,karo and min,got our nice lil plasticky rubber bands. (((:

hope we do well for the match tmr. gd luck bdiv!

2004-11-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna know

chatting with karorooney now.we re discussing our fats.really entertaining. and we ve decided to go on a fat busting mission tmr.gonna go swim! just cant wait. been some time since i went out alone with karo dearie. it ll be real fun.its a pity there ll be tuition tmr. total spoiler for my day.yikes

anyhows.zhennie pandas nice to talk to too. she keeps insulting me. kinda dreading tmrs outing cos of that. i can just imagine tsemin and hz s combined powers used to superly make fun of me.eeeeeeks.will be fun anyway i hope.(((:

and 2c 's outings planned alr. its gonna be so fun. i really miss 2c.it was hell fun.we were all so united in our hate for ms hasina. just cant wait to be with those crazee horny pple again. joanie,karo and gang. wheeee.its gonna be soooo fun.just cant wait.

2004-11-16T14:02:00.000+08:00

i m getting tired
and i need somewhere to begin

went out with crystal and lynette yesterday
it was fun
took spastic neos too

anyhows
today s a great day.i can just feel it though i will be rotting at home but i ready feel quite accomplished.i have finally finished my filing.gawd i m a total nerd.but its okay.my room is worksheet free now.very nice and uncluttered.want to accomplish alot today.

things to do;
~~filing~~
3 compos
chinese compre
2 chinese worksheets

2004-11-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

senorita i feel for you

wheee.i got my blazer today.its black obviously.i look funny. /: oh well nvm.just cant wait for the work experience to start.gonna be so fun.esp with teddy around.

went swimming today too.am down with a awful cold now.i think i swam like half the laps my sis swam? gawdawful.i m soooo slow.felt waaaaay outta place in da water.i m totally dreading the training that will be held in the pool.i ll be the laggiest.which reminds me.saw a pretty swimsuit with min the otherday.real budgetted price.from 70 to 40 from nike.its this red one with orange accents.really pretty.too bad i m broke now.

2004-11-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

shizit

woohoo.fmss netball bdiv got 2nd for da carnival.great news huh.think we played really well as a team.there were lotsa new combinations and i got to play wing attack.so it was really fun.and the whole atmosphere was kinda nice.with music playing and stuff.really great.got this asics bottle.aint bad looking.guess it ll be our team bottle now.

went out with min after that.she s such an awful pig.kept slping.and we totally pigged out today.on gelato.yumm.so broke now.doubt i can go out nx wk.walked around orchard and decided to go to this carnival beside orchard mrt? it was really empty.hardly anybody around.me and min decided to take 2 rides.costing 11 bucks. it was really funny.cos we kept laughing and chatting on the rides.especially the 2nd one which kept going up and down in spirals.wheeeeeeeee.it was darn fun.wanna go on more rides nx time. ((:

2004-11-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

jamie fok rocks my socks

forgot to include this in my earlier post.jamie fok rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.jamie rocks.my darling jamie.actually bought me a stuffed koala.granted it looks kinda mutated,being bright luminous orange and stuff.nevertheless,its really really nice cos its super nice to the touch.it has this furry furry 'skin' that i just love.keep rubbing its fur.wheee.i m in love. thanks alot jamie!

2004-11-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

i started out clean
but now i m jadedd

wheee.todays kinda fun.got to sch.walked out with sheranne.but got spotted by tiong and walked back in. sat at the canteen with lily sheranne and karo just chatting about lil stuf.made my way with sheranne to holland to slack aft that.had a nice chat with her.got bored and went back to school.just nice for emath lesson.which was kinda lucky cos it saved us from getting caught.so that was good.lit was plain boring.was reading my mag da whole way through.
cleared my locker after school.i have hell lotta books.luckily min helped me bring my bks home.

after school.was planning a havoc night with hz.it ll be damn fun for sure.just cant wait. (((:

had training which was kinda sucky.i totally have lost whatever stuff i actually knew abt netball.which is not alot in da first place.so now.its worse than ever.tmrs the jjc carnival.and i m screwedd.well.i ll be looking forward to the shopping spree i ll be embarking on with mindy.love walking around with her.really really fun.except that she tends to forget stuff.that blur girl actually told me that she finally got to eat the wonderful fareast chicken rice when I WAS THE ONE WHO BROUGHT HER THERE.she s a real meanie alright.better watch out mindy ng minli!

good luck to us tmr.do well girlies!

2004-11-11T18:12:00.000+08:00

suga suga how ya get so fly

slept real late last night.was watching a walk to remember.man.its a real sweet show.anyhows.got myself dressed up and ready to go to my grannys house.lucky sis has a class outing.got to my grans.and a member of my extended family was terrorising my poor lil cousin.she was screaming and crying.and that person just insisted on her coming into his/her arms.sick i tell ya. really put me off.stayed there for about half hour.and decided to come home myself.just couldnt stand that atmosphere.with nothing to do at all.some kind of bonding my mum wanted.took an hr long bus ride.and now i m back.with nothing to do.dang

well.todays nellys bday! though she ll probly never read this.but she is a really really great girl.with that big wide smile on her face. so this posts for ya girly. ((((:

2004-11-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

it don't do me any good
it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I
just tell you that I care

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter
I stumble like
I've got nothing to say

guess i m wishing my life away;
with these things i ll never say

went for tuition after school today
binomial is tough.damn.i m soooo lost in the expansion.after 3 hrs.went to the other room with sokkin to watch the guys play risk.it was kinda funny.kinda interesting game but real hard to figure out how to play.niam was especially pathetic.had like 1 soldier left on the territory.real pathetic.went home after that.

tmr will be going for some family gathering.will be another time of comparing eoys marks again.endless questions.and stupid comments about how i m not taking care of my skin.crappp.guess there ll be alot of pple missing frm class on fri.me included.would love to see the teachers expression when he/she sees the class really empty. (((: it d be cool.

2004-11-09T15:08:00.000+08:00

cant stop
addicted to the shindig

am at karos hse now.
her dog luckee is really a killer.
keeps barking and growling like mad.
hate it.
ugh.
anyhows.didnt go to get my jacket in the end.
stoopid sherri conveniently cannot go out.
will be going to cut hair with sam later
and back to sherris house for a vcd marathon.
((((((((:

2004-11-08T22:07:00.000+08:00

woahh.3 posts in 1 day.
hell yeah i m bored.
dreading school tomorrow.
freakit.
I NEED MINDY
AND HER WONDERFUL ADVICE
))))):
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

gonna zoom off to watch americas nx top model
it better cheer me up.
right now

2004-11-08T19:36:00.000+08:00

I, I don't know why
Why you need some reason to feel lost inside
You, you know that I'm alright
You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles

I don't use excuses
Don't ask why
It's just a breakdown
It happens all the time
So get out of my face
Don't even try
Ya wanna help me, just let me cry

You don't even know a thing I feel inside
No, by the look in my eye
That I'm just fine but I might need you to hold me tight

training was real fun.fun drills.one third court.and mini league.wheeeee.todays theme was desserts.my group decided to be totally obiang and call ourselves bobochacha.really funny. we had this new way of whooshing and everything. shaking our asses like mad. especially mindy.and our tagline was ' we put the bobo in the chacha!' .it was real fun. my team won.against both sticky chewy chocolate and cheesecake. so its 2 times in a row now.wheeeeeeeeeeee.went to eat with jocey and jamie aft that.had fun crapping around with the 2 of them.

crap.got school tmr again.how i wish i could just skip the rest of da 3 days.its such an awful drag.absolutely hate it. just cant wait till the end of the school day tmr. will be heading down to town to get my pretteh jacket with zhuster.still will be lacking a blazer for work though. )):

this week will be kinda busy. weds would be packed with either sherannes dental apptment or tuition.thurs would be some family reunion.ugh. friday s school and training. saturday would be the jjc carnival and a major shopping spree with mindy dear. hope i ll get in the team of 10. /:

2004-11-08T13:31:00.000+08:00

have a letter written in my head
i wrote this letter about all that needs to be said
i'll pen in down in black and white
i'll tell you all and that i've given up this fight
so i dont cry anymore
because i'm running away and i'm hoping
i can escape from all this kept pain

missed school today
yippee.
gonna go fr trng now
byeeee